"Good morning Mama. What is my little Helena doing today?" an older man dressed in the simple clothes of a trader asked his wife who was busying herself at the hearth, presumably warming up stew that had been left over from the evening before a warm breakfast.
"Papa, you can look out the window and see for yourself," she replied as she stirred a wooden spoon in the pot, and added a little water. "Your little daughter has not been idle."
The older man heaved his bulky frame out of the comfortable armchair, and stumbled over to the window. Helena wasn't hard to find as she was at work in her flower garden. He watched her for just a moment before a puzzled look crossed his face. He continued to watch her a few more minutes, then asked, "What is she doing?"
"If you'd use half the sense you were born with, you'd trust your eyes. You know what she's doing," Mama replied sharply as she toiled over the food.
"I see your point wife. Though it label me a dullard, I confess I don't know why she is pulling up her roses. What meaning there could be to her actions are beyond my feeble reach." Papa just shook his head back and forth at the mystery.
Mama set the table, all three places, with a generous portion of the pottage and a bowl of fresh goat's milk. "Husband, even I can't claim to be privy to the inner workings of the girl's mind. The reasons for her actions elude me. Come and eat now, there's work yet to do." She patted the table and pulled Papa's chair up to the table.
"Oh aye, I mean to see if I can have half of Ridian's flock on the block before the end of the week. He'll be anxious to trade this late in the year, and I reckon I can make quite a deal," Papa said, already putting his daughter's bizarre behavior out of his mind.
"Of course dear," Mama said, filling in the pause in the conversation. Throughout the entire meal, her eyes kept wandering away from her husband and the meal, and invariably found their way over to the window.
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Helena sat cross-legged on the ground in front of one of her prized rose bushes. She didn't move for quite a while, just staring at the flowers in front of her. After waiting a while like this, she reached out and grabbed several of the stems with her bare hands. She felt the thorns bite into the skin on her palm and fingers, ripping into the delicate flesh. She closed her eyes, and her face took on a set look. An angry look crossed her face and she ripped the plant out of the ground. Blood trickled through her fingers, dripping on the ground, but she neither let go or reacted in any way to the pain.
So this is what it feels like to be numb to everything she thought to herself. She tossed the plant to the side and clenched her fist, willing herself to feel the pain.